Albert Einstein

I never think of the future, it comes soon enough.
But, what if it is not enough?
Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck!!!!
Do tell me the cruelly truth, please.....
I'm sorry but I do......

from and form

I've realized that i can't recognized the differences between form and from. As their spelling is too similar, I always confuse to spell them. I write " Form" when I need to use "From" and vise versa. It's trickily but true. No matter how hard I have tried, still can't I change this bad habit.

Think Big to Get More

Think big to get more, even those aims are higher than your ability and confidence. Trust yourself, fight for it and expect a good future. The thing so called future is built by our will. Future is Fortune if you believe in it. if you don't, you are giving up yourself, escaping from your life, denying your fate, or merely lying to yourself. You try to use "Reality" to persuade yourself that there is no hope in the world, we should think small, working for the money, often change jobs, want to find an civil servant post for the rest of life. If you are, think twice, Are you really want a boring dead life but a bright brilliant one? Are you really satisfy with that so-called "stable" life? Are you reluctant to accept that you are run away from what you should be? Think big try hard, lose? never mind, if fight for a living is acceptable. 

In the critical monment

In the critical moment  on the turning point, what should I do, where should I been? it is a difficult question for me. Tarot may show the path of the upcoming future, it doesn't work when your mind is confused, when your soul is polluted. turbid thoughts would fallen the divination, not divine but dirty. That's my critical moment of my life.  

Thoth: The Four Tens

These cards are attributed to Malkuth. Here is the end of all energy; it is away from the “formative world” altogether, where things are elastic. There is now no planetary attribution to consider. So far as the Sephira is concerned, it is right down in the world of Assiah. By the mere fact of having devised four elements, the current has derogated from the original perfection. The Tens are a warning; see whither it leads- to take the first wrong step!

The Ten of words is called Oppression. This is what happens when one uses force, force, and nothing else but force all the time. Here looms the dull and heavy planet Saturn weighing down the fiery, ethereal side of Sagittarius; it brings out all the worst in Sagittarius. See the Archer, not shooting forth benign rays, but done its work; it has done its work too well; it did not know when to stop; Government has become Tyranny. One thinks of the Hydra when one reflects that King Charles was beheaded in White-hall!

The Ten of Cups is called Satiety. Its attribution is Mars in Pisces. The watery sign has sunk into a stagnant dream, but in it broods and breeds the violent quality of Mars, to putrefy it. As it is pleasure has been crowned with perfect success; and constantly it is discovered that, having got everything that one wanted, one did not want it after all; now one must pay.

The Ten of Swords is called Ruin. It teaches the lesson which statesmen should have learned, and have not; that if one goes on fighting long enough, all ends in destruction.

Yet this card is not entirely without hope. The Solar influence rules; ruin can never be complete, because disaster is a sthenic disease. As soon as things are bad enough, one begins to build up again. When all the Governments have smashed each other, There still remains the peasant. At the end of Candide’s misadventures, he could still cultivate his garden.

The Ten of Disks is called Wealth. Here again is written this constantly recurring doctrine, that as soon as one gets to the bottom one finds oneself at the top; and Wealth is given to Mercury in Virgo. When wealth accumulates beyond a certain point, it must either become completely inert and cease to be wealth, or call in the aid of intelligence to use it rightly. This must necessarily happen in spheres which have nothing whatever to do with material possessions, as such. In this way, Carnegie establishes a Library, Rockefeller endows Research, simply because there is nothing else to do.

But all this doctrine lies behind the card; it is the inner meaning of the card.

There is another view to consider, that this is the last of all the cards, and therefore represents the sum total of all the work that has been done from the beginning. Therefore, in it is drawn the very small cards, is what the twenty-first Trump, The Universe is to the rest of the Trumps.

Method of Tarot

We always check the meaning of a tarot card from tarot dictionary in order to interpret it but I do it in a different way: live with it, be it's friend, welcome the tarot step in my life, being a part of my will. If you do this, you will find it is easy to read and explain those spreads in a whole view but not speak out the meaning one by one like a robot. It does not related to any mystery things unless you wished to. It is just an attitude for learning because learning is not  one-way delivery but is open communication.

1.check it's meaning
2.forget it, just have a brief expression of it
3.understand it by your ideas
4.let your life experience joint with the ideas
5.memorize that feelings.
6. repeat these steps if needed.

Information and Knowledge

We all supposed that those information we have received is knowledge. However, in terms of philosophy, especially in Socratic wisdom, knowledge is part of the truth. All information in the lower world is only opinions. No matter those opinions is truth or not, they are illusions compare to the truth. Therefore, all information we have grasped, maybe useful for life, academic or science, does not represent the truth.

 See Plato's "Meno", "Theaetetus"